I am writing you this letter as the birthmother of Kristina (whom I love dearly) to tell you how things have gone so far. First, I know every nagging question that is running through your head from “How am I going to do this?”, “Am I strong enough?” to “How do I choose?”
Let me tell you how I chose Ken and Barb!!! The social worker from Adoption Options gave me five families’ profiles. I read through them by myself because I really didn’t have a lot of support. I liked one couple but I really wasn’t sure. So she brought me five more families to read. And I really didn’t want to start reading because it semed impossible to find the perfect parents! I really did not know how to choose someone who would love her the way I would. Anyway, I grabbed the top one and started to read, and found I couldn’t put it down. The more I read the more I wanted to read. When I finally finished, I knew they were the ones. I didn’t read anymore as it would be pointless, when I knew beyond doubt. I showed my girlfriend and she even liked them which was the support I needed.
When I met them I was so nervous, I had knots in my stomach. I kept thinking what if they don’t like me. Then I would have to start over again. When I walked into their house, I felt so comfortable, like I belonged.
Since the adoption I have gotten to see her on several occasions with everything going well of course. I am amazed and surprised at my strength but Ken and Barb have held me together. They have become family in my heart and I in theirs. They are kind, caring, wonderful people who I love deeply. I am very thankful I found parents like them; in my eyes they are everything I could have asked for and more.
Sometimes I wonder who is the luckiest, me or them? Then I realize that it is Kristina who is the luckiest because she has so many people who love her.
Sincerely, Deanna
